Friday, October 16, 2009

Conflict


True confession: I'm having a really hard time rooting for the Dodgers in the playoffs. My desire for a freeway world series and my dislike of the Dodgers are going head to head. I'd still like to see the Angels square off against the Dodgers but I must admit to being secretly pleased that they lost last night.

I'm a conflicted sports fan.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Danger



...centralization and codification, undertaken in the interests of religion, are a danger to the core of religion.

--Martin Buber
...there exists in every church something that sooner or later works against the very purpose for which it came into existence. So we must strive very hard, by the grace of God to keep the church focused on the mission that Christ originally gave to it.

--C.S. Lewis

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Cleanse - Day 30

Finito!

This is how I feel now. The bull that was my poor habits and eating issues has been stalking me for years, snorting and pawing the ground. Usually, when he has charged I have run like a scared rabbit. Not any more. I've faced the beast in the ring and stepped nimbly to the side. The bull is dead. It's good to be in control.

(Just to head off any outraged emails: I do not support violence to animals in any way. It's an analogy people!)


Monday, October 12, 2009

Cleanse - Day 29


Yoda told me today that I need to start easing the forbidden foods back into my diet, to make things easier on my stomach. So at lunch today at Taco Surf with Jim I allowed myself 5 tortilla chips (regular ones!) dipped in good, wonderful, spicy salsa.

And tomorrow--my last day!--I will have a bowl of granola with fat free milk for breakfast. I can hardly wait.

I will officially break this fast tomorrow evening when I have a scheduled ministry dinner over at someone's house. I don't know what will be on the menu, but I'm hoping it will include cheese.

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Ever notice how hard it is to change patterns in life? For instance, today I went to El Dorado Park as I often do and I walked around the lake, as I often do. Only this time--for the first time ever, I believe--I walked around the lake counter-clockwise. It was weird, but wonderful. It was like walking around an entirely new lake. I kept looking off to the right to see the lake, but it was on my left. Nice change...

I tried this the other day with shaving and couldn't handle it. On a whim I decided to try shaving the other side of my face first. I made a couple passes and couldn't do anymore. My brain kept saying, What are you doing? We don't like to shave that way! Stop! Stop!

Changing patterns is tough. I hope with this whole cleanse thing I've changed some eating habits and patterns in my life. I hope my experience from here forward will be more like the lake walk than the face shaving.

Wish me luck...

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Cleanse - Day 28


In 1986 I was a fourteen year old pulling with all my might for the Angels against the Red Sox. I remember watching with horror as Donnie Moore blew the save with the Halos only one strike away from their first World Series trip. I remember saying to myself that it was over--even though the Angels were still up in the series 3-2. A team doesn't recover from that kind of blow. Sure enough, the Red Sox went on to easy wins in games 6 & 7 and the Angels went home.

I remember the bitter rivalry of the Lakers with the Celtics, the Lakers finally breaking through against the beantowners in classic fashion in 1985, and how good it felt to watch Magic, Kareem and company beat them again in 1987.

I don't like Boston sports much.

The Angels have been particularly put upon by this east coast team, being pushed out of the playoffs in convincing fashion three times this decade. Add 2004, 2007, and 2008 to 1986 and you can understand why long-suffering Halo fans have a bit of a complex when it comes to Boston.

But all that ended today.

What an amazing, unthinkable comeback for this team. And in Boston too, in front of all those chowderhead fans. And in the most dramatic of fashions.

I will be savoring this one for a long time. I very, very seriously contemplated breaking the cleanse to enjoy a celebratory beer out on the porch but I hung tough. In all likelihood the Yankees will be next for the Angels and with any luck I'll a few opportunities to toast some more victories. I can wait.

Even if this season doesn't end up with a World Series win, it's been a great year to be an Angels fan.

I'm still pulling for a "Freeway" series against the Dodgers--man, would that energize the southland! Plus, with MLB insisting on playing baseball into November now, Southern California is the only sensible climate left among the teams remaining.

But right now I don't care about any of that. I'm just thinking of Ben Affleck crying in his green beer. I realize I should not take joy in other fans disappointment, but I'm allowing myself one day to do so.

Feels good.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Cleanse - Day 27


The wife brought home those delectable chocolate peanut butter cups from Trader Joe's. You know the ones I'm talking about. So much better than Reece's--they just melt in your mouth! But a serving size is only 3 tiny cups and that will cost you 180 calories. Ha! If I can't have them right now then you have to feel guilty about polishing off 9 or 10.

So I saw those and really, really wanted something sweet. I have no good options for that. I can and have put brown sugar (cane sugar, not refined, legal for me) in my oatmeal. Other than that I'm relegated to dried fruit. Yes, dried fruit. Who, when they want something sweet, eats dried fruit?

I do. 8 dried apricots. Really hit the spot. Grrrrrrr...

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Today was Saturday which meant soccer for the kids. Jen and I are pretty ambivalent on the whole youth soccer thing. Neither one of our kids (older kids, we're holding out hope for Wes) are at all athletic to this point, and neither one of them seem to be that into sports. We're pretty confident (and hopeful!) that they won't be interested in signing up again next year and we can have nice, lazy Saturdays again.

But for now, we go. The wife was out of town with little Wes so Daddy was in charge of soccer day. Miah had the first game at 9:00 am and his team actually won a game! First one of the season, 5-0. The other team seemed to have no concept of the offside rule which helped tremendously.

Riley's game was at 11:45am and for the first time in her soccer career (2 years) her team didn't win. She has been on stacked teams in which she is a role player, supporting the go-getters. The game ended in a 3-3 tie, no sudden death or shoot-out in AYSO U-8.

I was helping to ref Riley's game. The wife--despite my objections--has gotten it in her mind that I enjoy refereeing and therefore volunteers me at the beginning of each year. The first time I sat through a day-long "ref school" to find out how to check 6 year-olds for illegal cleats and the proper way to signal a goal kick. This year I refused to go and so I'm relegated to being a "line referee" rather than a "center referee."

Center refs have all the glory. They get a whistle. They also have all the pressure. They get yelled at by parents. Seriously. Because our kids haven't really gotten that into competitive sports I thought the whole angry, out-of-control sports parent thing was a bit of a myth. Not so.

Today Riley's team (The Sunshine Girls. I've tried to tell Riley this means she has to always be pleasant and agreeable, but she isn't buying it.) was the home team which means we supply the center ref and one line ref. The away team (Blue and Black Attack--now that's a decent name!) provides the other line ref.

The poor Sunshine girls, who had never tasted defeat and, I believe, had never trailed in a game, found themselves down at the half 3-1. Tensions were high as the half-time orange slices were consumed and normally calm parents were sniffing for blood.

Referee blood.

Throughout the second half the center ref--who is a parent of one of the girls on our team, mind you--received a fair amount of disgruntled commentary from the parents on our own team! It was comical. And sad.

Do 6 and 7 year-olds really need this kind of pressure? Does a volunteer ref with minimal training who is simply helping out from the goodness of his heart need this kind of grief?

It make me wonder about some of these parents who prowl the sidelines with the intensity of a lion waiting for fresh prey. Do they really have nothing else in life other than this game played by their kid? If this is how things are in the under 8 league, how is it by the time you get to age 12?

No thanks.

By the way, my role-player daughter got hold of one just right and booted a ball from about midfield that somehow avoided all other players and rolled into the goal. First one of the season! I was very happy for her.

Of course if it had missed, I'm sure I could have blamed it on the ref.

Friday, October 09, 2009

Cleanse - Day 26


Marinated that mahi-mahi in soy sauce, olive oil, onion, garlic, and pepper, and then baked it up with sliced mushrooms.

So good.

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My kids have internalized this cleanse thing to the point where they are telling me what I can and cannot eat. Riley making her lunch this morning: I'm going to have cheese and crackers, Daddy. You can't have cheese, right? (Rub it in there, daughter, why don't ya?)

Jeremiah as we rolled through Wendy's tonight to get them each a cheeseburger: I'm getting a junior bacon cheeseburger. Those are off limits for you, Dad. (Yeah, thanks for the reminder, son.)

By the way, this is the first time in this 30-day cleanse that I've been to a fast food establishment. I typically would go 1-3 times a week--loves me a spicy chicken sandwich with fries. Hopefully I can keep the visits down, now.

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Angels are now up 2-0 in their series with the Red Sox--I am a very happy fan. (Mighty Maicer Izturis got the big hit. Doesn't he look happy about it?)

Thursday, October 08, 2009

Cleanse - Day 25


Best cleanse day to date. I'll give you three reasons why and none of them have to do with food.

1. Went surfing this morning at the jetty at Bolsa Chica. I hit the tides right and the waves were breaking my way. Caught a couple of rights that were among the best rides I've had. (Disclaimer: only been surfing for 5 years so I still get excited about these things.) Water was warm enough for a spring suit, it wasn't crowded...all was right with the world.

2. Visited a beautiful old man at his house this afternoon who is dying of cancer. He may only have a few days left. I last saw him on Monday and he has clearly worsened in the last three days. But man, when he smiles... He has a grin that lights up the room and eyes that shine from deep within. I was happy to laugh with him, read to him, pray with him, and cry with him. He made me promise to come back. It was an easy promise to make.

3. Just got done watching the Angels beat the hated Red Sox 5-0! Maybe this is the year. Lackey pitched very well, there was clutch hitting... it feels like a (rally) monkey is off our backs. Let's make it 2 games to nil tomorrow night!

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I'm a short-timer with this cleanse. Only 5 days to go...

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

Cleanse - Day 24


Ben had some thoughts on eating, not very positive ones. Perhaps he speaks from experience. What do you think?


In general, mankind, since the improvement of cookery, eats twice as much as nature requires.

--Benjamin Franklin


A full belly makes a dull brain.

--Benjamin Franklin

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

Cleanse - Day 23


One week from today I'm done. Nice.

I took a final shopping trip to Trader Joe's and picked up a final week's worth of supplies: veggies, some fruit, oatmeal, nuts and, as a special treat, some mahi-mahi (so good they had to name it twice!).

I'm already thinking about what patterns and things I'd like to carry over from the cleanse. For instance, I'm done with Diet Coke. It's been a nice run but it's time to break-up. I've kind of grown to like the green tea and if I need a soda I think I'll go with Hansen's Natural.

I really like the wheat bagels toasted up with some honey on 'em. I've been slipping a little butter on there too even though I'm not supposed to. Don't tell Yoda.

I think I'm also going to end my relationship with sugary breakfast cereals. I dig the oatmeal and I'd like to get back into granola. Fat free milk, of course.

I don't think I've ever eaten this many fruits and vegetables on a consistent basis...would like to keep that going too.

I think I can ditch red meat permanently too. The more I read about where it comes from and the entire messed up beef industry the less appealing even the juiciest steak sounds.

Of course, these opinions could all change...

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Read something good enough to share today:

Thought 72 - Reverence

A sense of reverence and awe
in the presence of God
cannot be learned,
cannot be taught.
Without awe, people turn to doctrine.
Without reverence people turn to rules.
Doctrine and rules can be taught and learned.

The pastor resists the temptation to teach.
She steps out of the way and points
to the Presence of God.
Reverence and awe are born in the people's hearts.